ummm.. stresses and more stresses.

So the hubby and I had a very active month of trying to get pregnant and it looks like it didn't work this time. Oh well.. it will be ok.. but it will be less stressful if it would just happen right away! If only we could be so lucky! It was our first month using ovulation predictors and that part worked. I took a pee stick today and it said negative. It's a few days early, but I'm trusting that.  I had a pap smear a couple of days ago and I bled afterwards which only happened a few months ago when I had severe cervical dysplasia. So I checked my cervix and I felt a bump which is consistent to a few months ago as well. In Feb, I had a LEEP and recovered just fine. I go back to the gyn at the first of the month and I hope it's not what I fear. I don't want to have surgery again! I just want to get pregnant right now.
I think maybe I need a vacation.. with my husband! We never have a moment alone and it's been quite stressful lately... *sigh*

found a direction...

Helllo world !
Well the new deal is we are moving in with the inlaws! We are pretty much broke and we spent all our money on the wedding so maybe a few months or longer we can save again..yay! Of course it's not ideal but i'm not sad about it.  It's only a couple of blocks away so the move won't be hectic. Caity will still have her own room and the hubby & I get the basement!
On an even happier note.. We MIGHT be pregnant.. maybe.. don't know yet, but we are hoping! By next week we should know for sure.  We got ovulation predictor kits and really tried this month.. even tho we only have a 30% chance of getting pregnant -- still hoping!  That is just what I read on Babycenter.com for people in their 20's. Though I'm closer to 30.. the hubby is younger. The hubby will be uber excited cuz it will be his first biological child.
Annoying sidenote... allergies are going nuts and my nose won't stop running.
Still working on potty training.. tried with no diapers or pullups.. even tried regular panties (which she loved but didn't stop her from peeing in them).. I think really our problem is that we can't be consitent for too long. I do mine thing during the day but  than she is usually in a diaper for the evening and night.  I am not sure what to do next.  Getting her on the potty usually starts a tantrum. I guess we have time to get her interested in it again.

Soo.. that's it for now.

Roadblock or Fork?

So our family is a little stuck in direction.. or at least I feel we're stuck.  We've been talking about moving to Oregon for a long time, but the problem is getting a job out there.  This is something we count on my husband for. As an Air National Guard member, he has a better chance of getting a job than I. However, the Oregon National Guard hardly hires out-of-staters.  Now other possibilities include other states.. or the hubby as talked about being a police officer as well. The main point is.. we want out of Iowa.. we want a new adventure. He is not so happy with his day job and I no longer have a day job.  We are broke and have a little girl to think about plus we want another baby. Now all I have to do is get the husband to decide which direction he wants to turn to because I feel like we're on idle and I don't like it.
I'm just craving something new..

i'm exhausted..

so last saturday was my wedding!! After a week of family and friends that I LOVE SO MUCH, I am just pooped... so I won't say much, but I'll post some pictures.

I have nothing to say..

Yes, when it comes time for me write something I usually draw a blank.  Let's ramble..
I just took my test for A&P I and got my first 100%! I am very excited but I feel like I am going to fail the class because sometimes when I am reading the chapters I start spacing off.  I couldn't read the last chapter so don't ask me how I got a 100% on the test.  My problem is I usually skip on the discussion board for that class so my grade overall is still low. 
So.. my wedding is coming up. BUT I am already married! Haha.. how confusing! Not really! On Jan 4th, my husband and I went to the judge and she signed us married. TADA! On April 24th, it is our official wedding.. with God and friends and family! It will be tough with 2 classes and 2 papers to write.. Oh My Goodness!! I have to write two papers.. let's not panic! I think at least one of the papers will be interesting.
So anyways.. I am going to cut this short cuz I still have lots of work to do. Laters!

Happy Easter!

Today was a good day.. it was very emotional and spiritual.  My husband and I , along with our 2 yr old, first took a visit to grandpa's house.  I love my grandpa! He is the closest family I have around. My grandma passed away last summer and it was very sad.  It was like my mother who died.. a very close mother.  I love her so much.  On the other hand, she had a very long, tortuous battle with cancer and it was a blessing for her to finally pass.  So she could finally go home. 

Growing up I never been very spiritual.  Didn't really believe in God but knew he was there.. The more time I spent with my husband and went to church, the more I believed.  But the day my grandma died, my daughter who was 17 months old at the time, kept pointing to the sky.. so I asked her " what do you see?"  Her response.. "grandma, grandma" .. This had to be one of the very few times she has actually managed to say the word "grandma" nonetheless point to her in the sky!  I was convinced she was going to Heaven! That changed my view forever!

Later in the day, we went to the Easter service with my inlaws.. it was the most passionate service I ever been do! I was bawling by the end and I can't even explain it.. it was just THAT powerful! After the service, my husband chose to do a full immersion baptism reaffirmation.. and that was pretty sweet too! I am very proud of my husband and I love him very much! 

Now we are home.. the little one is in bed .. and I am just worn out but I need to do some school work. Laters all.
~angie.